I was telling Effy that I was tired and about to go to sleep. Naturally, I can't sleep. This is the second night I am having trouble sleeping. Not sure why...
Update: I receive a call this afternoon and I got the job! Mrs. Rosie Pizzo is going on maternity leave soon and I will be replacing her for a while. Just imagining how suck my interview was... telling Mrs. Pizzo the things that does not make sense. heh... Some of the time, I don't even know what I was saying until I realize it and said "Shit!" quietly... bla bla bla... Anyways, I am so happy to be given this opprtunity coz the title is big, "Assistant to Communication Coordinator of the Overseas Study Program". This is a big gig!
Nowadays, I am having a weird feeling as if the end of time is coming near on me. Yes, you guess it right, I am feeling like dying. It scares me sometimes. I keep imagining what the situation that I might die in, etc etc. The first thing that would come in mind is "am I ready?".
Other questions and reminder will be:
"Is it really going to be just like that?"
"Don't forget to reaffirm your belief!"
"How is your family going to react to the news?"
"Will I be remembered in the next 10 years? 20 years?"
"Will I be reborn in any way?"
"Prepare your will. Make sure somebody knows where it is and gets it to the right persons."
"Write last words for your love ones!"
I may want to think this seriously. Am I truly ready? I hope I don't get nightmares tonight.
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