Korean fever

The last two weeks I had a very bad cough. Then came fever. But all is well now.

During those weakening moments, I stumble upon a Korean drama entitled Boys Over Flowers. I actually came to know about it over gossips during lunch at the office. The ladies were talking about how good the series were. I was bored during my mc and looking through the internet on the series.

I have nothing much to say about Boys Over Flowers. Only that
1) if you need a good cry, pls watch this
2) boy band madness is back
3) i miss singing
4) Korean variety shows rock! I had so much laugh
5) Kim Hyun Joong (^u^)~~ swoon

The Climb

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NG2zyeVRcbs

I'm fixated on this song. Loved it.


The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm gonna to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah)

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb (yeah yeah ea ea)

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Whoa a oh oh

Mood for songs

I am moved by songs. Nowadays I am listening to - slow pop, pop country and pop rock.

Fix You is a song that I wish I can sing, but I cannot.

Poker Face is a song that doesn't make sense to me, but I love to sing it nevertheless.

Love Story is my humming song.

Please Don't Stop The Rain is my secret fantasy song. Not a secret anymore then. And don't ask me why either.

Samskeyti (acoustic version) is a bit haunting.

Devil May Care is simply an easy listening.

Somehow, Miley Cyrus is bugging me now. I think the soundtrack on her new movie sound really good. Gosh... I wish I have the writing talent.

I've Been Diagnosed

Tajuk macam horror je.

Today I am relieved to know that there is a condition to label this thing that I have. It is called White Coat Syndrome. A person who has this will suddenly be in a stressful situation when meeting a physician, especially with a specialist or when doing a medical check up. As soon as the Doctor leaves the room or vice versa, things eases to normal.

I now believe I do have this condition all this while. I am simply terrified when seeing a Doctor. It used to be very stressful when meeting with my current regular physician. But I think I got used to the Doctor over a time. In this case, it takes three years to lower the stresses away. I'm not quite calm yet though. I still have goose bumps when meeting my Doctor.

I'm not sure whether this condition is dangerous or not to my overall health. I mean, whenever I meet a Doctor, he or she will definitely think I am sick based on the reading. This upsets me. I know I am not sick. My physician can tell you that. I have taken no meds thus far and I intend to keep it that way. I will be in trouble when seeing a stranger Doctor, unfortunately. This is not good.

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I've been keeping my promise in living a healthier life.

I recall year after year, I kept adding more and more weight. I reached my highest scale sometime in mid 2008. I didn't think about it much then. To me, it was expected. A natural trend. Then, something suddenly came over me. I think it was about the time when I started to write again here. I'm not sure what it was. I'm just thankful that I finally stepped up and do something about it.

So from then onwards, my aim was to reduce weight every year. I'm happy to report that I am on track. I've lost about seven kilos and managed to maintain it at present time. I know it is not a lot, but this is the best weight lost in all my life.

I know I've been very slow at this. No one, except for my physician and the receptionist at my office took notice of my weight loss. I don't think my own family realise this as well. I'm so glad these two strangers has been giving me the motivation I needed to continue this strive. Personally I don't think this is an easy journey. It takes a lot of energy and discipline to do one correct thing. Definitely it is easier said than done.

I need additional boost of motivation every now and then. My motivation has always been emotional reward rather than tangible ones. In perspective, losing dress size does not motivate me as much as getting more people to look at me twice. Do you think so?

I wish I can earn income while attending a boot camp or something to make a drastic change onto myself. But then, no one is ever generous enough to sponsor such thing at a time of crisis like now. I always wish there is one out there nevertheless. I keep my hopes high.

Funny

The funny thing about this feeling
Thought I was lost at the first inning
You create a mountain up the ceiling
Surprise me with a gift worth all the saying

All I want is you
You get me at hello
You so beautiful to me

Just like a star
You walk away with me
I'll be always loving you

Thank you oo my lady
I'll always have you with me
Take me on your journey