Life is just so ..........

mood: distressed

Place: CV 126

It is raining outside. Summer is nice this time of year. It reminds me of my beloved hometown, Kuala Lumpur. Gosh, 2 years has already passed by. Time has gone by too quickly...

Effy is sitting on my right. Meanwhile, Arshad and Ogy are on my left. These are three of my wonderful and beautiful friends at Bloomington. Yeah, they truly are my friends here.

Lately, I am not in a very good mood. I've been isolating myself into my own cruel world. Why did I let myself fall into this hollow imaginery land??? Maybe because I don't like how things are going around me. One thing I know for sure is that I don't like how my roommie is having her own way making our apartment like her damn **** place to just let her boyfriend to keep staying in, day after day, morning to late night, anytime she or her boyfriend wishes to. I hate it man! I know that I am not a good person, in and out. But I know when someting is terribly wrong is happening. It is making me sooooooo mad!!! Gheez, they better off get married and live far far away from me. Don't start involving and dragging me into their own ****ing life. If they wanna be alone together forever, just let me know. I will be very happy leaving the apartment and live in a better life where I can stop talk about her damn life right now.

Huh... I am soo happy that I let that out. But writing it down wouldn't make that much of a difference. I have to tell her soon. Soon enough so that I wouldn't feel guilty and trapped in this whole ****ing affair of hers.

Shit... I have never been so rude like this before. Life is just so........... hah, I couldn't even say it. I do love my life and the things that has happened. I've been truly blessed since forever, I guess... A loving family with brains and money, respect and honor, everything. This would be the life that so many people would wish for. Yeah, I love my life, but not that happy at this moment. Yeah, I got to settle my problem like right now. Can't take it anymore. Wish me luck.